Two weeks of building bookshelves, two weeks of stripping ceilings, re-covering ceilings and painting everything in sight wears you down. I got up, I went to work, I came home and worked harder on the house. Sleep wasn't as issue, I was out before my head hit the pillow. And this was just the front room and the hallway, we have the rest of the house to go!
But now it's done, we're planning Halloween and my period hit. And it's like the baby crazy came and tapped me on the shoulder saying "hello, remember that feeling you've been distracted from for the past month... well, here's the entire month's worth all at once" fun time!
We're planning the rest of the house. On the one hand it's nice, we're building our home together and making this magnolia shell into a colourful aspect of ourselves.
On the other, that's a lot of time and money. The money for this stage alone (admittedly including tools that will be used for other rooms) would have covered the fees for an uncomplicated birth. And there's still the rest of the house to go, that's new appliances in the kitchen and new bathrooms too. We can afford this but not a child?
Then comes the debate about the spare room. At some point (it's a small side project), I'd like a craft table. Just a space to keep the sewing machine out, all my fabric and notions, my yarn and knitting stuff etc. My suggestion was against the window in the dining room looking out over the yard. It wouldn't be in the way of the dining table at all. Husband suggests the spare room. I jokingly ask what will happen when that needs to become a nursery and I get "well that's a long way off, no need to worry about it yet" *sigh* and then I want to cry.
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