When I'm feeling particularly awful about not being a child, I often joke about sabotaging a condom in order to get me pregnant. What upsets/surprises/scares me is how many of my friends don't seem to realise this is a joke. I joke with my husbit about this. He knows I'm jesting. I suppose at the end of the day that is what matters but it still makes me feel let down by friends and family when they actually think I would go behind his back like this. I haven't told Husbit, but I have made 3 promises to myself regarding ways I will not fall pregnant:
1. I will not lie to him.
2. I will not cheat on him.
3. I will not deliberately trick him.
If I'm entirely honest, there have been times when I've found this difficult, especially point 3 (though I'm pleased to say not point 2), but I do not believe that it would be a fair relationship if I did any of these and so I won't.
What it boils down to is that, whilst I may joke about it, I would never gennuinely act dishonestly in becoming pregnant. I value him and our relationship too much for that.
FKL
I have to agree here, M and I joke about it a little bit.. He tells me he'll only be worried when he sees me with a hat pin, so I told him that a hat pin was far too large and I'd use something far more subtle that he wouldn't notice!
ReplyDeleteIt is hard, there are times when quite frankly I desperately want to sabotage the condoms, fake taking the pill and it's the strength of our relationship, the fact that I would never.. Could never deceive him in this regard that prevents me from doing so.