Sunday, 29 April 2012

I cried again today

I cried again today.

I haven't cried for so long, and this weekend I've heard it coming, it's been whispering at me since Friday. Waiting for me to listen. Waiting for me to fall.

I cried again today.

I really want to go back to feeling numb, but I know I was closing down connections when I was numb, so I had to claw back until I could feel, and now the feeling is too much.

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  1. Sending virtual hugs your way, only wish it could be more

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  2. Thanks. I'm doing better today. It's been tough recently.

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  3. I think Spring has something to answer for in this regard.

    Hope you find the balance between numb and pain. X

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  4. I know my comment's a bit late. I don't know about you, but sometimes it feels too painful to look on here.

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  5. I know what you mean. Most of the time this is where I "put it all" so I can cope, so the darkest and worst of it is here. It's a place I come to when I need to, not because I want to. It think each of us understand that. For the most part it's just good to know that I'm not alone.

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